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a little about me...
i am charlotte, which has been shortened to charlie. i am 16 years old and play the cello and piano. i attend secondary school in kingston. in my spare time i play music, read, walk the dog, make this site and go out with my friends; pretty normal teenage activities. the music i like is not to a lot of people's liking except my friends. groups such as placebo, skunk anasie, slipknot, live and of course classical.



  relevent poem


LOST SOUL

my tears fall
like rain to the ground
a few drops hit the surface
and shatter like glass
others form pools
as i stare down in to these pools
in to these tiny shattered mirrors
i see myself
i see my soul
all the sadness, all the pain
as my body shakes from the sobs
i withdraw in to my lost soul
the place i despise the most

the love for my friends
i am very lucky to have so many close friends all of whom are wonderful to me. i adore them all for ver different reasons, and they each help build up a little part of me.

Clarice; I have known clarice since we were 6. she is my bestest friends and i know i will always stay in touch with her. i have been through a lot with clarice and i absolutely adore her. there is a very relevent quote that sums up my friendship with clarice;
"a true friend is one that you can sit on a porch and swing with in complete silence, and then walk away feeling like you have had the best conversation ever."

Lena; havent known lena nearly as long as clarice, but she is still very special to me. i met her in year 9 (3 years ago) and have become very close to her. she is the one person whom i can tell absolutely everything, and she tells me everything too.

Nicky; i have known nicky since the beginning of year 10, and i have quickly grown very attached to her. she has helped me through an awful lot, and i havel istened to her prattle on about a certain somone for hours!

Jane; i met jane at the same time as nicky. and she is simply wonderful! i blame jane for getting me in to building my own site. I have sat for many hours in school rehearsals for the play In To The Woods with jane, not playing our instruments, and talking about the perfect kiss!

Lisa; again a farily new friend, but one i value immensely. she always has time for me and puts up with me when i am rude and depressed. for this i can never thank her enough and tell her how much she means to me.

my online friend are also very very special to me. i know many people from the internet through clubs and chat and message boards and each one is special and wonderful. there are a few specific people who i feel need a mention.

There is Cats. i hope that one day i will be able to thank her sufficiently for everything she has done for me and hopefully help her a bit too. Cats is a very special and wonderful person. i love her so much.

A more recent online friend is Karen. she is very special and incredibly kind and i cant thank her enough for everything she does for me.

Also there is another Karen, my new mummy. i can tell her everything, and is a wonderful mummy to me despite the distance. i was so happy when she adopted me, because i knew that i would get through this. i love you mummy!
"I slash my arms out of my hate for myself, I starve myself out of fear of what i will become, I shall stop out of my love for you."

thanks to all my friends for everything that have done for me. without them i am nothing.



!!CAT!!
this is Cat, my little guardian angel. i have named her after Cats; my friend online who has helped me through an awful lot.


Azriel
A faery that i drew for mummy. the colours have been inverted...thankyou archie!!!